Patrick and Jamie Froh Family: Only a Week Late . . . .

Morning -

Well, I am tad behind in getting the blog updated with how things have been going with the Froh family now that I am officially employed part-time! There are a flood of emotions that I have been going through over the past week which has in turn made the past week filled with a great deal of stress. . .I am not going to lie. I'm not going to sit here and say that the past week has been hell 100% of the time or anything, but it hasnt been rainbows and sunshines either. I like to think of myself as a very organized person, but even I need to step it up a notch now. Last Tuesday went well as Maddie was well behaved for Grandma Tammi. . . .gave her a good workout - an hour and a half walk around the neighborhood, thats my girl! My day at work flew by. . . .there were a few times throughout the day where I would wonder what Maddie was up to but that came to a quick stop as I was busy all day long! I doubt I will ever be able to report that I bored at my job. . . .thats awesome! Since Maddie is still nursing, I have to pack up the good ol' pump and haul that to work with me. So far it has been working out well, but it is an adjustment to say the least.

Wednesday I had to work as well and Maddie got her first taste at the daycare at the Y. I'm so happy that she is in the same building as me, however, that also means I can hear her when she cries. . . .that is heart breaking to say the least. I ended up going in there to get her as it was a tough adjustment for her. She will continue to go there on Wednesdays and I pray to God that it will start to get easier and easier for the both of us. Baby steps Jamie. . .baby steps. . . .

Life has been nuts lately which has left me laying in bed at night asking myself a flood of questions. . . .did I do that transaction right at work . . . .did Maddie get orajel before bed. . . .how am I going to find the strength to get through tomorrow . . . . .thoughts, fears, dreams . . . . .I wake up in the morning feeling the complete opposite of rested. I understand that this will be a work in progress for all of us. I definately appreciate more and more my quiet time . . . . .my me time. . . .and the few opportunites I take to put my head back and close my eyes if Maddie falls asleep on me.

This weekend was filled with anything but rest. . . .but that is life at the moment. It has taught me a few things recently. . . . #1) I would do anything for my daughter, and if that means staying up until midnight to get everything done so I can hang out with her the next day, then so be it. #2) My life partner is the best teammate I could ever ask for . . . .we are able to achieve anything together. #3) No one is ever going to understand what you are totally going through, accept it and move on #4) Take that hour to yourself and dont feel guilty about it!

There are some of my feelings and emotions poured into a long blog posting. . . .wont be the last time that happens. . . .

Here are a few shots from the weekend. . .

Maddie is starting to wrestle a bit (or so we call it). . .here is Maddie vs Giraffe